He said he won’t do it again, but I know he will.
He said he’s sorry, but I know he’s not.
He says, baby I love you, but I know he doesn’t
He says give me one more chance, but I know I shouldn’t…
I don’t leave I stay….
Just one more time I say,
Yeah, one more time I tell myself.
I love you too, I say,
but what is love really, I think.
My brain is battling with my heart…
everyone can change I think, but what will it cost me I say out loud.
Nope, I erase those thoughts, maybe I’ll think about it again later…
But will later be too late?
How many times is this going to be the last time?
How much can “I love you really” mean when your actions show otherwise?
How is he really sorry when he still does the same things out of despise?
Yes, I should leave…
But I’m comfortable here, I’ve dedicated so much time here.
Time wasted you can never get back, changing how you spend your time could change a lot.
Hmmmmm, my thoughts are all over the place.
I sit and I think, I ponder and I decide to pray.
I came to a conclusion….
I love you, I think….BUT I love me more.
If I don’t love me, how can you love me….so I choose…
ME
It’s over.
I can’t do this any longer.
I won't subject myself or my child to this abuse, to this heartache and pain.
I deserve better and my child deserves better than no sunshine all rain.
Real love, love that doesn’t hurt or love that I don’t have to be afraid of.
I realize if I stay, my life will never reach its full potential…
if I stay I may not live….
what will it take for you to go as far as…
ughhhh I hate to even think this… BUT I HAVE TO BE REAL
KILLING ME? you’re slowly killing me.
I choose life…I want to live.
Staying, I’m already dead, I’ll be killing myself,
BUT since I love ME…I have to say goodbye, I refuse to dig my own grave,
I decide to be saved.
One more time you say…
What if that time is the LAST time I say…
SILENCE becomes an unwanted guest
You won’t do it again I say,
I’m sorry, I say,
I love me, I say…
Knowing now, I do know the feeling of love because I chose me, I thought.
No more fighting, Real love wins every time,
You have to LOVE you and be able to see the signs.